I’m a smart girl that makes stupid choices.

great weather+good mood= sundress :)

Graduation

So today I graduated from college. Big deal right? Anyone else would think so but of course I can’t make anything in my life easy. I wasn’t overly excited. I wasn’t shitting rainbows and roses, and I feel like there is something wrong with me. In the last four years I’ve learned a lot and I’ve grown up a lot but I’m still a work in process. I just hoped to be somewhere else right now and I’m not. Four years ago today I didn’t think I would be 21 and doing some of the same dumb shit I was doing with my personal life that I was doing at 18. Graduating from high school I was pushing people out of my life in fear that they would end up leaving anyway, all that end up happening was me hurting myself. Four years later and I’m still doing it but it holds more consequences now than then because unlike four years ago I’ve become more in touch with my emotions. Now I feel like I’m gonna move and have to start all over again, I’m too awkward to start completely over again. I’m happy but a complete sad hot mess. I hate being sad when everyone around me is happy for me. I wanna be happy too.